we're falling apart,
i wish i could save you,
but you kept everything to yourself,
you know that i tried to make things right,
but it all never seems to work out,
we're on the verge of falling down.
Julian Alformosi
I let my eyes wonder on
these everyday streetlights.
I'm tall and skinny,
and i see things as though i'm
in some typical pollypocket world.
The name Julian Alformosi
is often being linked with me
Likes to be in a situation where
deceiving characters unfolds
infront of him.
Drumming and headbanging
releases the tension in him.
Gigs and mosh pits
releases the attitude from within
Like the company of his drumsticks.
Attached to SITI 'AYUNI
I love you and thats all that matters
My little sweetheart who breakz my heart...
INTERESTS
Drumsets and Drumsticks describes me.
Guitar strings and Picks enlightens him.
Hanging out and Sleepovers makes me
Burgerking and Canteen is fun
but does not enlarge me.
Song writing and compose poems
is my way to express.
woke up early tis morning to head down to Ang Mo kio Primary skool to tutor their band... it was fun cuz seeing all those small kids being able to play their instrument at such a young age is impresseive... tutor-ed the fer lyk 3 hours before the whole bunch of us headed to vivo city via bus service... it was kind of a long bus trip... to me long bus trips makes u reflect on urself from tym to tym... niwae had long john when we reached there... take away and ate together on the open space near the jetty... sat there from lyk 2 pm to 6+... notink to do so chat and camwhore... niwae realised a few tings but shall keep it to me fer the tym being...
i kinda look gay rite... i tink so too...
she looks diffrenet is specs rite... nerd? dun tink so but studios maybe... but to me... ur right... just lyk wat her shirt says...OWN STATE OF MIND...
she is very gud at doing so...
wokay... i noe tat tis is weird... but dats a candid picture... was doin sumtink dat i just dun seem to remember when tis picture was being snapped... niwae hopefully i'll be able to achieve the hairstlye lykTHE REVin 3 months tym... keeping it...
the background looks foggy... cuz it was freaking windy at tat tym... it kinda created a mist... niwae... tis is when we were bored of doin evritink so decided to look at the scenery... i tink im gud as posing as a gay or so... tink modelling is gud fer me... haha kidding...
Shafiq Nizam Fina
dun tink tat the bond between us is going to break... been there fer each other so many tyms... and never did once got bored having them as company...
tis is when boredom strikes Fina... the 3 picture comes in sequence... the first 1 she hold dat so called banner thing tinking of wat to do with it... the 2nd pictures shows her getting inspired to create sumtink out of it and the 3rd shows her creating sumtink which i myself do not understand... her facial expression shows some kindof achievement... lyk i said...OWN STATE OF MIND....
this is whenFinacalls Kecikfer back up to help ger with her so called achievement... when to mind tink alike it only gets worse fer me... i become the victim to their own boredom reliever...
the final photo of the day... left to right -Farhana Nizam Shafiq Afiqah Shafiqah... the crazy gundus...
niwae had so much todae going out with the group... headed toward woodlands area bloks 600+ to accompany Afiqahhome... it was kind of a new experience fer me if u noe wat i mean... niwae walked home from there cuz felt lyk it... took me 30 mins to get home... its always fun walking home urself at tyms cuz it calms ur mind fer teh tym being...
niwae goin to stay at home tomorrow if possible... got to need some rest...
A Recollection Of Memories...
Thursday, November 29, 2007
when boredom strikes... anitink dat comes thru your mind becomes interesting... so out of pure boredom... the psot fer todae is about hair... haha ya i noe itsLAME...
tis is a picture of me when i was in sec 4... haha yeah i noe i look stupid... the hair looks outsanding rite as in it represents the monument of singapore haha...
as time goes by with the flow of trend... i came up with styling my hair tis way... flat on the front part and spikes on the top...
the 2 pictures above do not show difference... it is consider to be a messy hairstyle... erm however... if you look closely its the parting of the hair dat differs... tat shows dat i change the way i look from tym to tym following my mood...
finally... when ur hair grows longer, its always difficult to maintain... with not having any means to control it, u go with the flow... this is me on the day of the prom... let ur hair down is the magic word...
a question from me to you... do hairstytles reali hav a different on a person... do they look different ot sum extend ot izit just another hairstyle? haha
alright dats all fer this lame post... credits toGATSBYfer all the hair products used in this post...
A LITTLE SUMTINK WILD BOUT ME... TIS IS WAT SUM PEOPLE MADE A 17 YEAR OLD KID DO...
PLS DUN TRY TIS ANYWHERE ELSE... ALL DANCE STEP HAVE BEEN SUPERVISED AND SAFETY PRECAUTION HAVE BEEN TAKEN... PARAMEDICS ARE AVAILABLE...
TGM PRODUCTIONS...
ALL RIGHS RESERVE 2007
A Recollection Of Memories...
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
i woke up todae turning a year older... 17 is no longer consider to be a kid... ive always love sunrises cuz it reminds me of a new start to everytink that occurs in life...
met Tay Hui WenatDhoby Ghautand headed toP.Sto have lunch... its kind of sweet fer her to actuali spent my birthday together... niwae had Mac for lunch and did alot of toking as in all those food stuff and sumtink which relates to life... din reali had the tym to hangout with her as ive got other plans... niwae went into the arcade and played a spot the difference game with her... it was fun though... soon after had to headed back to woodlands... going on a train ride alone us to mek me feel empty but now i realised dat its better sumtyms so dat i could realy reflect on myself...
this is Tay Hui Wen
this was a little sumtink given to me by her... she says dat its not considered to be a birtday gift... she hav sumtink else in mind... niwae appreciate the idea...
a group foto of me and those wild and crazy peeps together with some of theAJ KREW...
wo de pengyou -Shafiq Helina Dhaifina Atikah Yusra
the birthday homies... look wat they did to us as a mark of sabo... i love those guys... Fahim(M)and i
this whole celebration could have been succesful without these peeps... gratitudes to them... cheers
Shafiq- a person who always irritates people around him... laughter generator is wat i would describe him as...
Dhaifina- a person who believes every word dat i say and always gets fooled by me... one of the most caring person dat i ever came across... a problem listener and solver...
Helina- a person which could be unoredictable at tyms... frustration overcomes her at tyms... she always tries her best to be noticed and a sincere individual... kacang walnut...
Atikah- she calls me abang tersayang... always disturbs me whenever she gets bored and her trademark phrase... "skarang dah tk lagi"
these are the gifts tat i received on my birthdae... namely a watch a chocolate box with chocolate in it... duh!! a card with sincere notes in it and they actuali crown me and i felt like a prince fer a day...
frens are fer kepping... been stuck with them thru thick and thin....
Aziemah,Nizam,Izzat,Wiwik
this isAMY... eventhough we are not that close to each other... i appreciate her for all those tyms that we had as classmate... cheers
from left to right:Azhar,Alfian,Nizam and Hafiz
Azhar a person who never fails to bring laughter around even with his sarcasm...
Alfiana fren which hav been with me from primary 3... see him grow through the years... thanx fer the 9 years of frenship...
Hafizmore of a brother to me... eventhough he does not noe it but i respect him as he is a person who never forgets a frens deed...
me after prom nite at pasir ris park in the wee hours of tuesday morning... nothing to do so the camera motivates us... look at how sleepy i am...
Chen DeGui
he look different on prom nite... i could say that without him the class would not be this close... eventhough he tends to irritates the class and teachers, at the end of the day all of us needs each other... thanx fer those good memories...
7 crazy years that i had spent with these guys hav been one hell of a ride... my FNN buddies... those that i could rely on fer almost anitink... true frens and pure fun... that i would describe them... thanx guys...
Weng Pung, Nizam, Jia Hui
Dhaifina Kamal
more of my own sibling to me... eventhough its only 5 years since we got to noe each other... this years could have been a difficult one fer me to handle as she is the person which shares my burden together... however, its always fun to disturb and irritates her... haha
THE HEARTFELT SERENADE KREW
been there and done that with these peeps... amazing bunch of people that i hav ever came across... own incredibility in each of them... a part of me which the hold
from left to right:Dhaifina,Nizam,Karwah,Khairuddin,Atikah
Ms Low Meiliang
my dance floor partner fer the nite...this particular fren of mine is hard to describe... everytink positive describes her... but it voices down to a fren which has been there fer me... a fren which hav been sweet towards me... close to being gud frens but we would prefer to be known as special frens...
this is me before the prom nite...i feel that i do look abit different...
had a great tym at the prom... mixture of feeling runs in me... i do noe that frens are fer keeping and that only true frens stick with you... thanx guys fer all those experienced shared...
after prom... decided to ton overnight... walked all the way to pasir ris park from the country club... stop over at mac to hav supper... den headed on... reached there and gathered around and tok bout prom stuff and life... i guess there was a need to do so... after a few hours decided to explore the place and therefore walked... walked around without any specific direcions... camwhored along the way... after an hour of walking we decided to stop as i could feel my legs breaking... forced to move on to find a place where we could sit... soon after we found 1... the funny thing is dat we actuali walked the outskirt of the whole park... how stupid can we be... haha... reached the end of the pasir ris park and sat around... stayed there until 530 in the mrning... decided to take the fers bus home and we did that...
that was one hell of a nite... memories will last sumway, sumhow...
more pictures of prom will be uploaded cuz havenm receive them yet...
wat i experienced todae was sumtink fun to me... a mixed feeling i would say... slept late yesterdae but dunno why woke up so early... feeling very fatigue the whole dae...
MORNING
spent my morning cleaning up my room... as in reali cleaning it... collected or should i say took empty boxes from the shops near my block... cleared all my books... cleared all my drawers and all those used to be important stuff... spent hours clearing it up.... i realised sumtink... if i had not cleared my stuff, my sec 3 books would still be with me... haha... niwae i came across a box which i kept fer quite sumtym nw... it holds all those memories that i once had with HER... feelings and desires which never came true... all written to let out wat i was feeling... its always gud to recall all those moments when we were still naive...
i came across a poem which i had kept for so long and i still remembered the tym tat i actuali confessed myself to her with this poem... now i am not afraid to share it openly... here goes...
dearest... many nights and days hav passed and ive been secretlykeeping this undying love towards you... how shall i tell you? onli this words could express it perfectly... I LOVE YOU... living in this world of uncertaintly hav always been the hardest things to do in life... to me you are lyk the rose amongst the thorns, the air that i breath and the person that i dream... notink in tis world could ever write down exactly wat i am feeling towards you right now... you cared so much fer me and so hav i fer you... all i can say is that you mean so much to me as you are a big part in my life...
LATER ON IN THE DAY...
prom is tomorrow and ive yet to buy my costume... metAPANlater in the dae at CWP to find one fer me... walked into john little and found a shirt after browsing through fer quite sumtym... tried on with the coat and i felt that it was kind of nice... feeling more excited fer the prom... bought LJS fer dinner and had it at AJ... soon after igot back home... im reali touched by my father cuz he actuali polished my shoes fer tomorrow... thanx dad... hopefully i wun over dress myself tomorrow as its only smart casual... but i doubt i will... niwae now just checking out sum tings and will knock out fer the dae... tomorrow morning still hav to do sum alteration at the tailor fer my pants... will upload prom pictures as soon as i can...
well basically been at home the whole day... pure boredom... erm waited for calls but not even a call came thru...spend most of my tym watching tv and reading the papers...
i called to check onNABIL's condition... his mum told me that evritink went on smoothly... he is now still weak and therefore in ICU for a few more days... i felt a sense of relief... i knew form the start that he would make it thru... i could only thank GOD... im goin to visit him soon before heading to kota tinggi... hope that he recover real soon so that he could atleast attend th POP at the end of the year...
PROM IS IN 2 DAYS TIME AND IVE YET TO GET A COSTUME!!!it is all due to no money... guess i will just have to do with wat i hav lah... even if it means a t shirt... but come on man... itsPROMleh... must atleast wear sumtink more formal than my evriday dressing rite... haiz... 1 more day to solve tis problem...
niwae i hav a rough idea of wat i want to wear but den not sure if it is possible... i have no source of cash... haiz... nvm lah...
i just dun noe why i hav so much to tok bout this few days... metLISHANtodae accompany her to TANGS town area for her interview... actuali oso to find a job lah... i tink its the fers time that i actuali go out with her onli eventhough been frens fer so many years... sorie wor... niwae she got the job as a gift wrapper but i didnt get it cuz they needCHABO... izit the rite spelling? haha... imagine me working as a gift wrapper... can laugh till my head explodes... haha... niwae she posted to vivo... so train over to check out the place... and to oso try jobs available...
erm tried a few shops like CONVERSE, ADIDAS, EVERLAST and those kind of shops but the dun need staff... went over to LEVIS... they gave me a number to contact HR... but then it is as if the dun want me cuz they gav me a number which is not in use...SO U GUYS TINK THAT PLAYING PRANKS ON ME IS FUN HUH... haha erm tried NEW URBAN MALE... even before i could finish saying 'is there any job vacancy', the fellow pass me a form to write... haha guess they need staff... erm they say they will giv me a call ASAP... hmph...
explore the area... den came across a shop selling games and anime stuff... look around cuz thot of buying a PSP real soon... den saw the recruitment message saying that they need staff... i ask the female assistant there bout the job thing den she reply to me in chinese... do i look sochinese-ly? haha luckily gotLISHAN... she translate fer me... erm she say alot of girls applied fer the job but they reject... they prefer guys... erm they ask me if i noe anitink bout PSP and stuff... i laugh in my heart so loudly... me... dun noe bout ti kind of stuff... haha u got to be kidding... they like need staff urgently... so i tink i hav a gud chance fer this job... YEAH!!
metFINAand HELINAat vivo... they happend to be there as well... erm look around fer a dress... look around but still cant find sometink tat catches our attention... well thers sumtink funny bout them... we pass by HABOURFRONT CENTRE and there is this small fish tank with angle fish in it... den the fish was kind of yawning as it extended its mouth...LISHAN say that she fers timesee such a ting... it goes the same forFINA andHELINAas well... niwae went home after that... on the way home me andLISHANhad so much to tok bout... we mention bout PSP and 'shake,shake'(w580i)... den suddenly the train stopped at sembawang as in between yishun and sembawang... den i told her that trains oso hav traffic lights... she say that she didnt noe bout all this... i find her rather weird not noeing bout this kind of stuff... haha... funny lah you people... niwae prom is in 3 more daes but ive yet to get a costume... no cah lah dey cuz no job... sad... hopefully they will call soon...
todae ... 16th november... a day tat i will remember...SIEKMEEas of todae is a year older... however... the memory of the incident that happened a year ago still remains fresh in my head... i wouldnt want to go into detail as it would only bring back sour memories... however there are some things that i hav been keeping with me and wanting to tell you but i just couldnt bring myself into expressing it to you...
moments when we use to be very close that we did not even care of wat other thought of us... moments when we got so close that we could even share our deepest sorrows... i still remember the time tat we went to the movies with theJINGYUand the others... tat i would say the best moments tat i could ever imagine... the strong kind of bond tat i believe only we could understand... well tat would only remain to be sweet memories now...
things just when wrong tat i would now realise small mistakes tat could destroy the whole picture... however i dun blame you either am i at fault... i guess its just not meant to be... niwae lets leave it as wat we are now... im just happy that we are now at toking terms... atleast we are still frens...
NOVEMBER
Fragile leaves hit the ground.The cold air drifts into my lungs. I see your face through the fog.Reminds me of the dreams you lost. I can see it in your eyes.You're broken down; your hands are tied. I can feel it in my side.Over and over and over I've tried.It broke my heart. It felt so good to see you.I've never been one to put my trust in. When did I become so weak, or have I always been? I can't put all this back in placeThis gaping hole in my chest is filled with deceit. I fear that all my cries fell upon deaf ears.I caress flesh with severed nerves. I go veiled in darkness and disease. This November swallows me whole. And this may be the closest thing that i willl ever receive to an apology.
met the rest of the band members at msl mrt... bus-ed over to NUH... when we got there took late luch together and met zaid and some other band mates... in total i tink it was around 14 people visitingNABIL...
TO THOSE WHO WANTS TO VISIT NABIL : WARD 47 BED 33 LEVEL 4...
saw him... chatted with him giving him confidence and try to break his nervousness... i knew how he was feeling... metMUZAPltr withKECIK... he was late meeting us so met us there... its been a while sinceMUZAP MEandNABILhad a gud chat... niwae... i had to go off soon... hopefully evritink goes well for him...
went over to marina square by bus... the trip was lyk so long... by the time i got off the bus i felt relief as it was getting tired sitting... searched the place forATYandFINA'sdresses... actuali my fers time searching for a dress... as in not for me lah!!! erm well went over to city link and search summore... goin round in circles searching for 1...finallyATYdid bought a purple dress... to me it fits her nicely... erm legs getting so tired tat it was near to breaking it... niwae... headed back home via bus... AGAIN... erm felt like sleeping in the bus but the bus was cramp so it destroyed the atmosphere... so im back now... niwae... i hav interview tomorrow at town area... all thanks toLISHAN... thanx wor... hopefully can get the job...
well woke up at 7 in the morning... got ready to go for work... erm waited for dunno wat bus 40 or 400 at the CWP taxi stand... tats wat the person told me to do... she say that there will be a bus there at around 8 to pick me up... reached the stand at around 7.40... looked out for the bus numbers but notink match 40 or 400... haiz... waited for an hour den decided to call the in charge and ask her bout the bus... i explain evritink to her as in wat time i reached there and the bus thing but she was like f***... she just kept shooting at me asking me wat time i should be at the workpalce and stuff... i did tried my best to search for the bus... she ask me to wait a while more... i decided not to as the fers impression tat i gave her eventhough its not my fault is tat i cant be punctual... so i decided to giv it a miss... watever lah ehk!!! erghh!!!
hang around CWP... waiting for the shops to be open... waited like around 1 hour... luckily there's my hp to keep me company... tried asking for job opportunities in CWP but mostly wanted full timers... went to 77th street... ask for job vacancy and they say tat they will give me a call soon... hopefully can get a job soon...I NEED CASH URGENTLY LAH DEY!!!
goin to meet percussionist later on in the day... goin to visitNABIL... wondering wat to buy for him ltr on... niwae.. if u guys happen to have any job lobang please be kind enough and let me noe... appreciate it..
A Recollection Of Memories...
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
starting a blog is kinda tough... but at the same time its fun...
well todae was kind of a tiring day for me... woke up early in the morning at around 8 to go for band practice... well a very stressful day for me as including me only 4 percussionist turn up... futhurmore... all the pieces that was being rehearsed was new to me as i was busy with my o past recent weeks... percussionist are love... well talking bout percussion love... i only could pray forNABILto have a safe operation... my heart out to him as i saw him grew over the years... ended band around 430...
WORK PLEASE FIND ME...
ive been busy searching for a job... I NEED CASH URGENTLY... well been browsing the papers for possible job opportunities... been calling here and there and mostly been rejected... however... received a call from one of the jobs that i tried and she told me tat i can start tomorrow...
PLAIN STUPIDITY...
met ads brads at marsiling mrt.. planning to go to the nearest train tracks for some camwhore-ing... took a bus trip over... was feeling kind of hungry though... so headed to BPP to have LJS for dinner... tinking that we could squeeze time in for dinner beforer heading towards the tracks... however by the time we finished our meal it was dusk... by then there's no point camwhore-ing... so headed back to woodlands... met AJ krew and hang out with them... it would really hav save us the bus fare as we could hav just had our meal at LJS CWP... plain stupidity..
well its kinda late now... tomorrow still hav to wake up early... haiz... tats just life... tk care now...
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