im done with UTs... i swore computing ut suck big tym... nvm its over now... today, my ebergy level was so down the drain... moodless... but still laughing was the only source of entertainment... ive yet to carry out my pledge which is to sing on the table in FOOD HAVEN... im sure alot of the other skool mates have seen one of us did that... well planning to do it next week but ive yet to choose a song yet... so yeah...

to my amaze, 70% of the class actually walked off after second miting... the reason, most of us cant be bothered cuz there's no point studying for sumtink which will not be tested... so headed to QUEENSWAY with the normal clique to collect my stuff and chill out... and yes 1 more thing alot of them wun be going to skool tmr and i did ask my mum if i could not go for skool tmr and i was granted permission... instead im going back to my old skool to guide them with their playing...

my innerself, my emotions have been a little to chaotic for me to handle but i cant think of anythink else to actualli express it so words shall do it...

this is one of my band's original song and it is somehow close to what i am feeling deep in me...

When I feel down,I think of you,
And the rain starts falling down,
And how I’d wished,That you would be,
Just waiting there for me,

Your touch, your smile,Your lips, so fine,
I hope that it’s all mine,
Oh baby I am yours…
Tonight..

All day, and all night,
We march into the serpent’s front,
We’ve disguised, to our demise,

If one day, we say goodbye,
I will take back all that’s gone away,
Remembering all, these memories…

I spent these nights,
All by myself,
And your picture is all I have,
Dark memories,Been haunting me,
How it’s hard to let you go..

But deep inside,I’ve tried so hard,
To get back in your heart
Else I’m saying these last words, to you..

Your touch, your smile,
Your lips, so fine,I hope that it’s all mine..
And all these time,That all I’ve done, it’s all,For you..
Oh baby I am yours,Tonight..

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well its wednesdae todae... and im so freaking worn out... happenings of this week... mondae i stepped into the class with that freaking muscle crmaps all over my body... im partially dead sitting on that chair or watever u call it... niwae made it thru fer the day.... just when i thot class is over, i still have to attend the captain's ball competition with the classmates... go there with the mindset of just to have fun and play abit of sports... its been freaking long since i played sports... so yeah... dat bout mondae... i guess...

ut, uT, and MORE UT!!!! shit UTs... have been having them for 2 days straught and tmr is the last one fer the semester... which also means that i can start to enjoy... tuesdae was normal except that i made a trip down to QUEENSWAY to do some surveying of stuff and had to do some of my own stuff... so yeah... its been a very tiring week and i hate long bus rides when im tired cuz cant do much except sleep... pfft...

i guess todae was the only happening day for this week so far... the SAGGYs came up with the idea of a pledge cuz we were bored of the daily routines happening in skool... so i tink its a kool ting which we can then get to noe more people cuz most of them involves strangers in RP...


ive imagine that im closing my eyes now... these few days, i have been slowly drifted far apart from what ive ventured out to gain... enventhou im at a loss i guess its better to be in this situation than to force things out... how i wish i could read u like a book so that i can understand evri single thing that involves you...

i once came across the thot of writing and epistle of you so that down the road, when we look back, it would be nothing more that just plain memories that each of would just recall here and there...feelings come and go but only those whom u treasure most will remain in that little corner of your heart... and that part of me have long been empty... can you be the one who fills it up and make me contetnted?

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long week = tiring days = no posts.... well skools been tiring and its fast approaching the semester break... went over to SJC to tutor them... it have been fun over the recent visits... improving slowly... HIGHLIGHT OF THE WEEK - IGNITE... YEAH IGNITE WAS THE SEX!!! PLAINSUNSET & ELECTRICO was the few amazing bands... haha... its been freaking long since i last got myself in a mosh pit... being shoved and pushed at was fun... did that to others as well.. haha...

today i did something which i have not got myself into for a very long time which is sports... yeah had the competition at skool... i came with the mindset of just having fun... and yeah had fun... really have to build up my stamina... i get tired easily... niwae pictures will be uploaded soon... yeah... had a tiring week... so im off...

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rainy daes brings the certain feeling of down moments which falls on you... well dats exactly what i felt today... i dun go writing long posts just to express myself... sometyms i run out of words and even bite my tongue upon doing so...

fantasy are being made for us to drop by and get away from reality for a moment... ive been constructing my reality and hoping that i can get that reality of of it... but its dat hard to tell... emotions left astray making it felt like it was of no use just to put that intentions away but no matter how far i pushed it, something attracts it back...

less than a month im left with but i dun mind losing that few weeks just to go the long way to get to the destination where ive plotted, your heart... i dun care what others might say... say all they want, it doesnt bothers me... i tried not to blink freaquently just to see that sweet image which i can get addicted to... your voice i hear i create it into a serenade, the words you say i write it as an epistle and you as a whole i accept it as who you are... u differ from others, i began to cherish more of you and all those small 'whispers' that we had...

a few more weeks...

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everyday been the same... repeating itself... over and over again... its either skool or work... so yeah... dats about it... fun? boring? you guys decide... nothing to touch on particularly for todae... maybe just some pictures from Jammerz Arena welcome party held last fridae...




READY SET GO!!!

yeah... dats bout it...

days been passing by me so quickly that sometimes its just to hard to hold on to... ive been posting my emotions day in day out... guess i cant find any other alternative besides this... i see you around evri now and then... the normal hi and waves that we exchange... i walked pass you and smiled at you like the will be no one else... i look upon the expression of your face like ive not seen any of those before... i let my mind wander off evri now and then to free from these chains that ive been slowly yet painfully build it... yeah... poeple think im goin insane... let me correct them... im insanely into you...

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woke up still with that terrible splinting headache i had from the nite before... todae wasnt wat i wanted it to be... nothing bad happened todae... just that it was suppose to be a rest day for me but seriosuly it meant exactly. there was no fun at all... settled the chalet thingy and di some msging of a few people... other than watching a DVD i guess that's just about it...

feeling much better now... but i just can find things to do with my spare time... tomorrow im sure its going to be a tiring and long day but i need the money so i guess i'll just have to make some sacrifices evri now and then... a whole long day ahead tomorrow...

i searched for you evri now and then... i seem to be missing you alot... pictures are substitutes i have to gazed upon... evri angle of you, evri detail of you made it so important... i dun tink that you will ever understand how i feel towards you but i dare not show up and run the show just yet... i do not have the courage to appear infront of you to tell you cuz to me time is a factor... you cannot just be in the desire state of love in just a short period of time... but if tis is not love than wat is it? im still hoping for that day where i can just be myself and not restrain myself from coming out to play... a day wher i could just be with you where we could then understand each othet and let my misery diminish from within... will i ever get that chance?

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todae have been a great dae... skool was normal... filled with the sustained joy and laughter... and not to miss out the daily blasting of the class speakers... 3 weeks left to holidaes... im so looking forward to class chalet... but it also measn that we are splitting up which i actually hate that idea... nevertheless we can still have meet ups evri now and then i guess...

todae was Jammerz Arena welcome tea... my god it was freaking fun.. meet new faces, interact and got to know them better... yeah will be having JA camp during the holis... but hopefully it doesnt clash with the chalet...

finally a day fer me to rest... im taking a break from this long and tiring week... work on sundae is sure to be exhausting... sometyms i wonder if i shd just sit at home and not work but the cash flow have been in some problem...

emotions grew stronger for me... the sight and the interaction of us have been tighter.. but im still wondering if i made a wrong decision to have such feelings and intetntions on you... weeks and months are considered to be short... if i do not have anitink or feelings fer you would i then be having fast heartbeats and thots or should i say frequent thinking of you? i dunno... images of you appear evri now and then...

i guess love is actually looking at someone who is imperfect perfectly... but is it too early for me to have such emotions towards you? wat if i were to keep it to myself and repeat my past?
it is also considerd to be a tough matter for me... but still it somehow bothers me... i think for the time being i should just keep it to myslef...

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well week's been hectic... multiple skits in presentations... laughters and giggles over skit on prostitutes... hectic but a hell load of fun... FAR EAST with clique was always a fun ting... it becomes more happening when we share a common thinking... randomness at any moment at any place... haha full load of shiet crap... i had my cap done... it looks kool thou... YEAH!!! KOOL SHIET!!

im having a convo with the krew... we are planning a whole lot of stuff in terms of money matter... planning to make it big fer or music passion... planning on opening up a studio... this tym its real shiet... hell yeah its a whole lot of money usage but we will start tings slow... equipments alone would cost 5 grand and not to mention the purchase of yamaha drumset with 4 peiece cymbals sets... yeah its gonna cost a bomb... well we still have a few years to prepare... originals are abit stuck due to my busy schedule... hav not record drum part... its goin to be done soon...

ive realised that somehow i felt closely attracted to you... emotions goes chaotic in ur presence... acting calm was always the contradiction of what im feeling inside... the term love is not yet to be discovered... its too early to be mentioned in this framework... i admire just the way you are... that little candle burning in your eyes... that expression of your smile passes a breeze thru me... a little something i try to work out... a dedication wher im moving myself to... passion and understanding i need...

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life have been busy and tiring fer me... its due to all the skool life and job managing... just got back from working at GEYLANG MARKET... been standing from 8 till 8... OMFG... ignoring the cramps and the force acting on my knees... its been tiring but it had been such a nice experience fer me...

ive been asking those who seems to be sad to join me for a happy meal so that they can cheer up... but currently, i need someone to buy me a happy meal... things have been complicated fer me... one moment im so way up there, the next i dun even know myself... environment and the poeple affects me easily...

i need someone to hear me out where i can express my most inner secret so that my life can just be like the teletubbies where they are so expressive of themselves... i need to go back to the time where i was once like that... but no worries... im standing firmly on the ground

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bloggy isnt dead neither isit playing dead... ive been abit busy and not to mention lazy lately... skool's been a drag with all the UT and stuff but i guess its fun when we are off track...

ive been chatting with a whole bunch of people and it made me realise what i used to be in the past... but ive grown up since... naiveness was just an old chapter in my life... people would chase after all that's nice to the eyes in this case it relates to all aspects of life...



todae i learnt something which awaken my senses... animal cruelty is till happening around the world regardless off the heavy penalties... sometimes i just dun get people... they would go all out to get what they want... yes i respect that but i dun respect them when it involves animal cruelty... animals are like us... they are close to us... humans kill animals for what the animals have that can benefit them... they are also living beings... would you kill another human being which may be ur family members just to benefit urself... its dosent make sense... STP ANIMAL CRUELTY... STOP BUYING ANIMAL PRODUCTS...

what would cookie monster say to elmo? - i need chipsmore
reason being chipsmore is NIZAM"S favorite cookie

well meet my fren with 2 stomachs - RAJAN...
no we are not GAY

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groggy feeling in the morning can reali destroy my day but nevertheless i pulled myself to skool... lets see wats so fun about skool todae... NOT!!! no skool was no fun at all... early in the morning the UT killed a whole lot of my brain cells... freaking difficult.... chatted with people almost the whole time i was in skool... free styled the whole presentation with professionalism and i guess we were ok todae...

microphone or drumsticks? i'll stick with drumming

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well yesterdae was a very fun experience but yet costly but it was freaking worth it... went jamming with the band over at MASALA... met the krew at boots and shoes before taking that bus ride to CHONG PANG... set up the mixer and all those equipmet fer recording and we got down to business... FINA and ATTY came as though it was some kind of HFK reunion together with DUMMYRA... did a run through a few time to get use to how the actually originals would sound lyk.... im preety much moved but the flow of it...

HARRIE did his solo recording and his rhytm fer it was amazing... i was stunned... completely un-no words-ly... drum records was next... its very difficult to follow the rhythm when recording... in actuall sense, the drum beats should be recorded fers.... starting ftrom scratch again...


well nothing special happened todae... go to skool, fool around, and more fooling around, and home... yeah... HAPPY FREAKING YOUTH DAY!!!

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i miss those saturdaes when i use to hang out late into the nite with those hang out kids... sometyms its just difficult to maintain wat we have due to all the influences and the kind of changes dat each of us are goin thru...

todae have been nothing but a complete boring day... was suppose to meet up with my clique to head to PENINSULAR PLAZA to do some spending... but had it cancelled... so rotted at home all the way till late afternoon... my butt felt lyk goin out so called HYRUDE and asked him to get my snowcap... met ALHAM at the station and trained to CITY HALL... got my stuff and had dinner at LJS... well headed back home and here i am... crapping in the train with the change of gears(inside joke)...

i hear disturbance before and now voices from behind my ear i hear, slowly dragging me... if only ur easy to let go off like a balloon which i let go where it flies and when the problem just go away...

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im just speecless for today... i freakingly hate doin Visual Studios... it suck big tym with all the VB codes and stuff... and the faci just helps it top the list of the charts... i came today with a prepared mindset that i cant be bothered... went through the fers 2 meetings and did some codes before a few of us got our butts out of the class... didnt did it cross our minds that those who are considered to be good students joined us too...

well yeah our classmate LI TING came back to skool to settle some stuff and to giv a bid farewell to us.. we showed her the blog that we created with all thoese farewell notes... proceeded on to CWP cinema and catch HANCOCK... my oh my... it was worth watching... personally i would give 4/5 ratings... had late lunch with them over at BK before making my way back to skool fer JA meeting...

JA peeps are kind of kool... i met my other of my kind...

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weeks hav been fast passing by us... this week have been rather and extra ordinary week fer me... maybe its just dat period of tym where a person actually have some tym to rediscover ourselves...

okay, let me recap wat happened... setbacks, split personality, screw lose... yeah its been a rollercoaster ride so far... niwae todae was quite a rather stressful day due to all that info that i needed to absorb... no doubt its interesting facts but they just came in huge chunks...

didnt did we realise from blasting our class speakers with rocking head banging songs could turn out to be a some kind of competition between 4 classes... well atleast we are doing something together... jump style to shuffling to moshing... u name it... we have done it... to be reprimanded by some facis that we actually disturbing other people, we whack through and continued blasting... i guess that was a way to release stress...

stayed on till about evening to catch up with some stuff before making my way back... its been a tiring yet amazing week fer me... catching HANCOCK tomorrow with some classmates and i strongly guess that we are going to cabot after the second meeting...

busy days up ahead...

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i guess todae my screw came loose... been reacting strangly subsequently... wave of nightmare is gone atleast fer now... im fine... still standing and smiling... and of cuz back to all those CRAP SHIT dat i am so good at...

module for todae and the presentation i find rather nonsensical and a full waste of tym... eah its lyk so watever... we talked , we smile, we see each other but the connection have been notink more but the same... its a challenge and its getting more interesting and fun... voices from behind my ears i hear, a silent whisper that drags me closer... calling and reaching out to finally meet what ive set my mind to it...

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