today i wasnt being myself at all... be it my appearance or my character... i was rather quiet the whole day... no im not sick... people experience setbacks evri now and then and i guess thats just it... as i step in the class with a whole lot of coll shiet people, i was welcome with alot of stares, whispers and concern remarks..

i guess they are just not use to me being in a certain way... aniway i tink its alright to be tis way once a while. people walk in and out of our lives and that exactly wat happenede to day... we were stunned with the bid farewell of our culture faci... we didnt knew bout it till the dismiss of the class... all i can say is that it had been fun noeing u and its great to have u as our faci...

well a new month means changes... and im still tinking if i should implement what i have planned out... i guess i have practice what ive preached...

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the vision of the eyes do not always share the same intentions of the heart... i came to realise these few days how ive been slowly but effectively got myself out of the world that i once knew... images of you kept running thru my mind that it showed up in my dreams just lyk a roll play image...

i tried to think of something else to repel myself far from those thots... but the more i kept myself away the closer i get to you... some would say that emotions do not come in a short tym but i guess that differs for each individual... what i need now is to accept that fact that my reality have been painted in a certain way... stepping into an unfamiliar zaone is an unsure step but thats exactly wat i have to do...

I APPRICIATE THOSE WHO SHOWED CONCERN... THANKS GUYS

went to CLARKE QAUY with IDIL and did our not so honest job... did dat and met HYRUDE beofr meeting ARYL over at 3 HAUS PARK... we sat together and hoping that we could finidh up our own originals... share a few common ideas and in no tym we accomplished what i have been waiting for fer a few months now... arranged it logically and did some run thru... the solo is the only thing left undone... going to jamm abit soon and i guess it will be out in about 2 weeks tym...

FANS OF THE HEARTFELT SERENADE... THE SINGLES WILL BE OUT IN ABOUT 2 WEEKS... WILL UPDATE YOU GUYS WHEN ITS READY..

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life is nothing else but an unfair shit... emotions creates chances... yes it does... but sometyms it just turns into heartaches... i looked around me, my eyes circuling every angle that i possibly could. i thot to myself... ive been slowly but truly losing out alot in my life...

history have been repeating itself over and over again but there is nothing that i can do... nothing at all... sometyms i hate myslef for those small little things but yet made me felt that it was superior... ive been trying hard to let my feelings and emotions out to the one that attracts me but evritym i tried to do so it just made me felt timid as if my life was like a plankton...

i tried to deny that im a failure, a coward but the fact is that i am... i never seized the chance that appear right infront of me... i think to long, to deep... that when i decided to go for it, i just missed by a few seconds... it hurts me evritym that happens... i wonder why this falls on me when i looked around how romantic and lovely couples behaves... it creates this little uneasyness in you that it felt bitter for quite sometym... it took me more than a year to accept the fact that once i wrote in an epistle of a girl whom i gave evritink to but in the end it was just not for me to take...

i pulled myself out from beneath the deepest hole and slowly i gained the esteem that ive lost... i appeared to be normal and strong but deep inside i cried so hard that sometyms my eyes could not contain it... ive moved on since but for the past few months ive been asking myself if i should move to the next phase of my life and once again exploit to the world of love again...

making frens was what they always say to start things off... i felt for this figure which somewhat shared the same personality as the previous one... but i could move myself to create a spark which bonds us closer... i always run out of words but once in a while i tink of her, i searched for her but most importantly, i felt for her... a feeling that is hard to forget came crashing at me when i found that that i was and again late by a step... she had a boyfriend... i swore it broke me to millions pieces just like when the atomic bomb blasted the whole nation...

i felt so devastated, so vulnerable, so pathetic and once again i was timid... hiding from reality and fancied my living in fantasy... i guess thats just me, a person who never really creates a good impression or a mark on the hearts of others...

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ive just have tis feeling that the days are passing by me very quickly. people change their habits and so do i... be it a social norm or just something which i decide on. yesterday was one of the best team mates that i could ever had... well there is oways something interesting when we grop with someone who we are comfortable with...

today was LEPAK DAY and we headed down to 3 HAUS PARK to chill... watched a movie on a laptop and even the day just about that... not in a very good mood lately... guess ive just need to chill abit

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Hi guys,

It is the moment that you have been waiting for! The Jammerz Arena RESULTS!! But first and foremost, we would like to apologies for the delay that we have been taken. I am sure that you guys have been eager for the answer whether you are in or not. Well, here’s the time!

Our advisors, Bernie and Kelly, had made their decisions and it took them quite a while to select the potential ones. You guys are chosen based on your skills and talents. In fact we find most of you guys are musically strong, some are positive influences on attitudes and group dynamics, and others add interesting possibilities to what JA can become in future.
Each of us has got strengths and weaknesses and we felt that this combination could push the IG further.

Well…………………………………………………………………………,,,

YOU ARE IN!

We are so excited of having you guys part of the J.A family and we hope that we, together as one, can bring the name of JA to greater heights. As for your information, we are going to have a welcome party for you guys in order to let you know more about JA and to bring all of you together to know everyone in the family. As for the date, it is soon to be confirmed again (which is going to be REAL SOON) and we are hoping that you would attend because through this, we would get to know better with each other.

im freaking over joy and out of words... finally ive reached my milestone for this phase of my life... im so freaking IN!!

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(01) What is my full name?
Mohammad Noor Nizam Bin Wahid
(02) Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
AVENGED FREAKING SEVENFOLD TOURS
(03) What's your favourite thing(s) to do?
jamm on that drumset and whack the beats out
(04) Do you think money can buy happiness?
maybe it does... it depends.
(05) If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
HEARTFELT SERENADE own concerts
(06) Do you believe you can survive without money?
not reali... its an expensive living
(07) Do you think there is such a thing called 'LOVE'? Reason?
yes... suckers freakingly dun believe in LOVE... FUCK THEM!!
(08) What's love?
loving the other half whole heartedly and putting evritink else in a relationship
(09) What do you dream of doing in the future?
being able to expres myself and see what im capable of be it in music or anytink at all
(10)List out 3 good points about the person who tagged you.
one can? both HANIZ and DUMMYRA are freaking cool shiets... they make my life a freaking awesome one
(11) What makes you happy?
im happy when im problem - less and when people ard me are happy
(12) What type of person do you hate the most?
FUCKERS who fuck other people's mums
(13) Where do you see yourself 1o years down the road?
10 freaking odd years and still enjoying evry shiet
(14) When someone says "Can i have your number?" , what do you do?
i tink its more of a way fer us to open ourselves up so HELL YEAH i would give it....
(15) Who is the most important person in your life?
my MUM... i dunno wat im going to do w/o her
(16) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
experineces that ive been gathring these years
(17) If you had a chance to change your life, what would you want to change?
i would change nthg cuz im fine with it... those who freaking despise me im so fucking them off
(18) The love of your life now?
my freaking family....
(19) Are you courageous enough to tell a person that you like him/her?
well someone have to make the move so why not... right?<br>(20) what would you do if you are freaking rich?
depends on wat there is in stores.


ive removed the lower portion of this survey cuz my frens are goin to whamp me if i did...

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well its fast ending fer the week... its been atleast quite a good week fer me... but with the exception fer the dae and the events that occured yesterdae...

ive been doin nothing much after skool lately except fer surfing the net or stuff... ive got not much enjoyment... its kinda frustrating and boring when we have got nothing to do... my fren PALEEHIN have been much excited waiting fer the release of our originals after he heard our draft... well its still in the process of making it perfect but we have yet jamm that song... so relek yek...

well ive been rather good this term... have not been cabot-ing class lyk wat ive used to do last term... good job... UT have been killing alot of us but i guess tats wat separates all of us... so yeah... evritink seems to be alright fer me at least fer the moment...

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had this intention of just skipping skool todae fer the sake of going back fer band... thot hard bout it but in the end went fer skool... tis morning was an ass bitch morning... fers of all got to know that my things that i wanna wear are being worn by my brother... its irritating sometyms... next my psp batt was down... things couldnt get worse fer me... but it did... it took me prehistoric years to set my hair... another freaking bad hair dae... searched fer my wallet and was rushing but couldnt find it... after a while it was found in a drawer... who the hell did it get there... went down towards the bus stop but the bus drove pass me... one descrption... A BAD DAY...

met PALEEHIN and RAJAN at the usual place before meeting YUSRI... walked to skool and class was normal excepts fer the fact that the class call me NOOR now... haha...

left class after my presentation and make it fer band... as per usual hang out with the NONGNENGS an catch up on old times... a few rounds of poker and did wat he oways do best...
hanged out till the sun sets and walked back home with my krew members... did some discussion and the idea of our new singles which i believe will be out pretty soon...

yeah dats bout it fer now...

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well skool just rock big tym fer me... i dun noe but im loving skool fer dat matter... life fer me hav been great but i do feel abit out sometyms... maybe it is due to dat little emptyness inside of me... i came across a saying... problems arises when a person is not contented with what they may have but problems go away when ur happy with wat you are being offered...

ive done alot of thinking lately and it made me realise what i want and what i wanna achieve fer myself... with the kind of momentum im having currently, im goin all the way... to hell with those who wants to bring me down... it just wun work tis tym round...


my module grades have been ok... just ok... 7 more weeks to my next break... it may sound long but its kinda short if i were to tink of the moments im left with and all those emotions...

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its been days back since the last entry... ive hav had no mood lately... bored and stuff... the usual...

orite yesterdae was papa dae... did nothing much in the afternoon... as usual to celebrate special occasion... went to play bowling at CDANS club... had fun there playing with the family... we rarely have tym to have activities together... had to frames before having dinner over at some CHUA CHU KANG restaurant... ended my dae after that...

so todae skool continue... i was so looking forward fer skool to reopen... i was freaking bored the whole holidaes... it kinda suck big tym... meeting my clique of frens was a cool shiet ting to me... todae's lesson was pretty ok not that im saying its interesting... well its not but neither was it boring...

so after skool stayed behind as usual to catch up on games with my clique... headed to CAUSEWAY POINT KFC to have dinner... and so here i am... feeling boring and empty...

im bearing with this inner emptiness... a line to express it...

as i gazed upon the glass panel, my eyes came upon a figure which my eyes falls upon... my mind says follow my heart but then again... something pulls be back to keep myself shut

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life is a big cycle... sometyms ur up there, other tyms ur hanging by the thread...people hav their own flaws... i would be lying if i were to say that i aint hav any of them... people may see me as an individual, an individual who knows wat goals means to him... a person who understand himself well and being confident... maybe dats just the perception that people attain themselves...

i hav a confession to make... i dun noe myself well enuf... day by day, i lose a part of me... im not good at words to express myself... be it about my inner feelings to someone or anitink fer dat matter... maybe im timid to the world or maybe im just afraid of my outer self... people enter my life thru the term friendship... i enjoy the presence of them in my life... but wat is my identity? do i try to become someone else that even i myself would not be able to recognise? so why do i do this? is this a way fer me to hide from reality? i dun noe animore...

tis holis have much been a tym fer me to get to noe myself better... ive neglected alot of things in my life... my frens, my family but on top of that... ive neglected myself...

i need to recuperate...

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AN ADDITION TO THE BAND - ARYL SUERYLSKI

todae went out to regroup with the geeks... refering to HEARTFELT SERENADE... as usual... with the company of ALHAM... met the rest over at MARSILING before miting ARYL... trained over to DHOUBY GHAUT and headed to our usual jamming spot...

jamming todae wasnt that intense... its just time fer us to fit in all our different characters into the band... touched on DEAR ANGEL and my god... tis kid have vocal potential... we wun be goin under the spot light fer the time being... need to work out a few strong covers and maybe a few of our own singles before making a show...

had fun todae jamming with the krew... i could sense better happenings fer us with our current conditions...

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holidaes are a big NEGATIVE, at least to me... i get bored easily when ive got nothing to do... homeworks hav been extinct and considered to be prehistoric... all i can do is to rot at home with the 'comfort' of the television and the computer...

well atleast i spent a day earning some cash fer myself by helping out with a malay wedding function yesterdae... atleast i step foot out of my house and be tired... no im not complaining nor am i whining... one sentence to explain the situation - MY HOLIDAES BEEN A BORE... except fer that CLASS BBQ over at PASIR RIS...

niwae... all those free time really gave me the opportunity to reflect on myself... i do tis whenever ive got so much tym... sometyms i run away from problems... not becuz im coward to face them but to prevent myself from hurting others... a simple quarrel breaks evritink that a person may hav build fer years... sometyms it just happens but there may be ways to mend it back... i tink i need courage fer that...

sometyms i just pretended to be someone else but there is never a chance that i can hide my true self... well maybe ive neglected a few of my frens... no doubt about it... and im sorry fer that... im struggling with tym and other activities... now that my holis are here... lets hang out last wat we use to do back in the daes...

my life i see currently is only towards expressing myself in music form... i hit the drum skins to let my inner self out but i dun feel the sense of comfort... im just not myself animore... i do not noe wats happening with me... split paths, different mindsets... thats wat im facing... never hav i done tis before but im hidding over at that little dark corner where i never thot i would do so...

i need air to breath... i need a clear mind to set me thinking... I NEED SOMEONE TO TELL ME WAT TO DO...

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im dead beat... its been bone cracking, back breaking and body aching.... SHIT my whole body is cramped up... niwae it was worth all these pain fer that freakin awesome class bbq... its only like a day thing but ive like got so much to tok about... OUH HELL YEAH!!

met YUSRI 'ANGEL' at the platform before making our way to PAYA LEBAR to collect the meat that we ordered... haha... my mouth just cant stop moving whenever im with this kid... so reached ther about 12... had breakfast around his uncle's shop... met PALEEHIN and crank that kid RAJAN in the train at PAYA LEBAR before going to PASIR RIS... waited for lyk ages before TAUDIN 'HARDCORE' came... how the hell could he be late when he lives in PASIR RIS? haha weird but funny guys... (LU KEKEK TAPI LU GEREK BEB!!!)

proceed on to the interchange and the SMRT or isit the TIBS CREW told us to take bus 403 to PASIR RIS PARK... HAH!!! FREAKING PEOPLE... alighted at the bus top where pit 50 something was there... walked all the way from one end to the other just to reach our pit 10... sorry to those who did the same thing as us... cant blame me though...

and so the 5 of us... waited for that delivery guy to reach... set up the tents and LEPAK... raining abit here and there so we came into the tent and made it into a SMALL GAMBLING DEN... took silly shots until ALVIN came around... they played soccer while i kinda rest myself up to conserve till next morning... one by one came and the atmosphere got better... soon after evrione was there... by the time the group arrived the food was ready to bbq... afternoon wasnt really that happening as compared to the night... so pictures were taken(haha class camera man)...
some had to leave early as they had something on...but nevertheless the party was still as lively... RUSDI joined us soon after...

only a few taunt but the numbers wasnt the issue... they were as still as WHACKO the whole day... how on earth would a BREEZER make someone drunk when its only half a bottle consumed? haha i saw it with my eyes... haha funny lah dat guy... i enjoyed all those TRASH TALKS with my guys which i would relate to as FAMILY... freaking nice people to hang out with... we talked from a topic to another till it was the break of dawn... sunrise was ther fer us to capture... the beam of light touches the waves of the sea and there it was... MORNING...

packed our stuff and headed back home to the well deserve shower and the persuasive sound of the spring from the mattress...

niwae pictures will be uploaded when i receive them from ATTY... i swore its tonnes of them...

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todae had been a more relaxing day fer me compared to previous days... managed to complete all the things that i needed to do... orite!!...

planning fer a class outing is fun but it could be a little hectic and problematic if it was a last minute thing... so i can say that i atleast proud of myself that i managed to settle all the stuff from booking of pit to ordering of food and not to forget gathering all the people with proper time plan and being a loan shark fer a few days... well... hopefully it will be fine tomorrow...

niwae im so looking forward fer the class bbq pit tomorrow and its not bcoz im organising it but bcoz its been 9 weeks noeing these whacko bunch of people... so im hoping that tomorrow will be the dae where we extend ourselves and open up more to each other...

possibility of 18 people goin... well it was more pathetic daes ago when only 10 confirm goin... well its good that they actually spare their time for this event... so i guess i wun be joining some of the who plans to go for escape them park... not bcoz i dun want to but the delivery man will arrive between 4 to 6 and i hav so got to be there... damn it...

niwae todae met up with ATTY and DAFFY under my block to trade my acoustic guitar for ATTS camera.. not trade as in trade but borrow... haha... met YUSRI a while later to settle all the bills and the necessity for tomorrow... came over to my crib and settle a few stuff... so i would say that evritink is ready and done... heading to GEYLANG market tomorrow to buy a few stuff and dats about it i guess...

so its back to the charcoal, chicken wings and toning...

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ive been having sleepless nights lately... dun ask me why... niwae woke up early today... so here is wat i did todae

tv
psp
sms-ing& calling
tv
computer
tv
loan shark-ing
sms-ing& calling
computer...

it repeats like a damn cycle... its been a freaking boring day for me...

niwae watched DRUMLINE sometym in the afternoon... no matter how many tyms ive watched it before... it never gets dull and boring for me... it always teaches me something new with my percussion abilities... it amazes evri now and then... haha... back to the drumsticks for me...

so here is the finalised info

040608
PASIR RIS PARK
AREA 1
PIT 10
I HEAD 15 BUCKS
MEETING PLACE : PASIR RIS CONTROL STN
TIME: 3

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orite... so its sundae... who the hell works on a sundae? well actuali me and PALEEHIN did... was supposed to be at OUTRAM STATION at 11... met PALEEHIN in the train over at MARSILING and reached there half an hour before tym...

waited for 5 minutes and it slowly multiply itself to 1 damn hour... that jackass just lost his sense of road directions i guess... reached the meeting point after much delay... if i were to be in a some kind of amazing race, i would lose... my sense of direction kinda sucks...

98% of the people ther are chinese people mostly(cine-rep) ... groups with 6 of those type and headed to PAYA LEBAR for CITY PLAZA... flyer job is so freaking easy... 1 hour 7 bucks but we were paid 4 hours when we onli work for 1 1/2 hour... easy job+ easy cash... teehee...

goin green with green notes(cash)

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