a little update about yesterday... headed down to jazrel's crib over at .bedok... for chinese new year... it was a little meet up session of them but sad to say only 3 of us was able to make it... but nevertheless it was fun...

so after a while we headed to town to catch the Chingay Festival... though we reached town abit late after dinner we managed to catch the finale... and our good fren alvin tan was among those who performed... so we wanted to get away from the crowd who will be going home from the festival and making it a big possiblity making the station packed and so we headed home quite early... im sure there will be more meet ups soon...

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with our never ending music making and jamming sessions in which all of us look forward too... be in at aryl's crib, our old pent house, level 5 carpark or even level 2 free space... it was always fun

and our very first courages step to explore to the outside music scene... underage freaquency and winning the 3rd spot... that was our greatest achievement

turned up for MSL POP making quite an impact with 'BENSON'... making us known to the world...


having a larger group which hangs out with us everytime we do so... and never did we ran out of topic to talk about...


yes we did have our tiffs and isnt that part of life and growing up? well and yes... i cant never get that far away from them and i admit that i can never get tired of music making and drumset playing... and yes... im back as Julian Alformosi - Devout Recital's Drummer

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alright people... back from aryl joy's crib... nothing much to say except for now that skool is over for me, im staring to feel really bored for i have nothing to do... so hopefully i can find a job to fill up my time...

im just blogging to say that im starting to get back up from all the downfalls ive been facing... peace out

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i did not realise that it would be this fast that my first year have come to an end... tell me that im up for year two cuz i aint ready for it... memories are meant for us to keep and remember be it good or bad... but indirectly, its a chance for us to miss the people that are involved...

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this marks the end and a creates a new begining

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it seems only a few days ago that semester 2 started... but im left with 2 more days before it comes to a close... of cuz i will miss this class... its been great having the presence of each of you guys... things dont just end here... there are more adventures waiting for us... keep in touch aight...

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sometimes in life we plan out things and we never really get to see the whole picture... i think it have been indirectly planned..

DVR' originals

when ive lost a part of you
hoping for a better tomorrow
on the verge of falling
these last words

if a person actually arrange the sequence it can actually illustrate my situation

it will be something like this

on the verge of falling - things seems to be too complicated for me to understand... negative images keeps on appearing in my mind... slowly i gave up on life and i was on the verge of falling

hoping for a better tomorrow - every day i wake up and the first thing in mind would be that everything goes well in life... pushing aside anything that is bothering me and running away from reality... and every night i sleep im hoping for a better tomorrow...

when ive lost a part of you - who would have thot that i hung up my sticks? i never thot of it too... isnt that losing a part of me? well slowly it showed signs...

these last words - when its all said and done nothing could change the fact... and these are my last words to you people

see my life have been planned through the originals above... there is nothing to talk about... for now...

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it seems that people do not understand me that well... and i dun blame them for doing so.. it all comes down to me... i bottle up things and that have been me for the past few years... i just cant seem to share with people what im facing...

even when i chose to talk to people, i cant bring across that same message that ive planned out in my brain. what i say is not exactly what i mean... currently im at somewhere in the skool... getting as far away from people and taking a huge time off...

the sound of the water crushing down just like what you hear sitting beside a waterfall makes me release a bit of tension from within... just like a dried leave falling from the branches... and there it stayed until someone clears it... that's exactly what im waiting for... my problems(dried leave) waiting to be solve( being cleared away)... what was i thinking? trying to run away from reality. so now you guys noe that im not that strong after all...

everyone of us have what it takes to dream.. and its okay to dream for something... but not all your dreams will come true... and one of them is this...

yes ive dreamt to be who ive always wanted to be...
ive dreamt that in a way people would recognise me...
ive dreamt thati would succeed and make it top through my music...

and yes... ive also dreamt that i would not be able to continue my dreams...

sometimes there is an end where a person can no longer push himself to greater heights.. and for my case... its now... dreams are created by us and dreams are also shattered by us... for every bad thing comes a good thing right... so maybe in the future things will open up for me again... but till then, i have to choose and create my own path...

never have i hated drumming and never have i hated music... and im not hating it now... im just taking a long break from it until ive found what i mean to myself and what i mean to others... i cant go on life without knowing my true identity and keep on walking on the surface of this earth pretending to be someone who i truly am not...

i need time to recuperate and i dun welcome pressure at this moment... there will always be a replacement for something... and there is always a replacement for me... its a matter of how well you can adapt to it..

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fuck... i hate this kind of little feelings that runs in me.. things begin to get very complicated for me... sometime in life if we cannot find a perfect solution we just leave it as it is... but abandoning the matter will only makes you feel uneasy... so i decided to let go one at a time... ive always thot that music cures everything, solve every matter... well it was the case for me for the past few years... and it works just fine... but recently that was not the case..

so what if i can play the drums? so what?
so what if people say in good at playing it? so what?
so what if im in a band that is slowly made visible to the community? so what?
so what if people see me as how i portray? so what?
so what if i can whack close to a 1000 triplet in a minute? so what?
so what if people call me Julian Alformosi, DVR's drummer? so what?

so what? im just me and no one else... im not even half of the 5 points above... im just any other ordinary person that you see day in day out... ive come to realise how far ive come just to be able to play music and play it well... 6 years maybe?

but ive missed... ive missed out on looking at how music have changed me to something i'm not... do you guys even noe who i am now? or do i even noe myself... im begining to feel that its been a waste of my time doing things that ive been doing for the past few years... im begining to hang up my sticks and move on from there as an ordinary person... i dunno... maybe i should...

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so i guess its my just desserts and retribution... alot of things have befall on me... just great... im getting this feeling that im the cause of all my own problems and people's problems... just great isnt it...

so yeah at first it was me feeling that ive neglected everyone and let every one down... only i myself can understand why... so when i thot everything would fall back into place and that i could be loved once again... i was dreadfully wrong... how can i even think of getting in a relationship? i suck at everything i do... and yes i was strongly cut off from that relationship just like that... people to blame: MYSELF.... yeah its just me... so i couldnt turn to my family like how i used to because of some personal things that have occured...

just when i thought of giving it up and letting it go... i found myself a group of mates that i could rely on, DVR... so i thought that it was a turn over for me but i guess some things you cant just give it you're everything... small little problems are looked upon as huge problems and that analysing wouldnt be necessary any more... so i guess i can say i am to be blam... again...

so i guess that i should just keep a distance away from people for the time being cuz maybe its just me being around them is causing all this shit to happen...

i need to have a break from all this shiet....

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today i chose not to discover new things from outside my house... i chose not to meet new people... i chose not to answer phone calls or reply text messages... i had made a great reflection of my life and what i have been missing out for the past 18 years of my life...

alot of things that i could have done was missed bu me... i know that there is no point in regreting all of these now except to amend it... i stared out of the view from the window and i gazed upon the clouds looking for my answers to guide me back to where i used to be before.. and i realised that ive been too far away from my famliy...

i chose not to step out of the house because today every family member i have is at home... it is very rare for this to occur... i chose to spend some time with them after so long... there are all i have left... no one else to rely on including my relatives... a simple dinner as a family was just enough for me to feel satisfied being with them... you guys will always be a part of me

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i was chatting with a fren of mine, manda... and we came acrros this topic about how we think life is and how we always try to plan things ahead of us... she shared this phrase with me which she was inspired and with that phrase she got me thinkinng and appreciating it... this was what she mentioned


it made alot of sense and made me realise that life is not just about planning how a person wants to plan his life... it is also about enjoying the things that occur on a single day and never rush off the things just to achieve the things of some other day

so im over and done with all the UT for this semester... shit i dread going to skool... i find going to skool now to chase for daily grades are rather useless now that the the semester is ending... i daily grade would no longer make a difference... thinking back, its been a fast process for my year 1 inpoly as im almost done with it...

this year means more commitments, more workload and more activities... im hoping that i can cope and ive made up my mind to quit Jammerz Arena... i do not see the bond between the people there... so might as well drop the idea...

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i fucking dont like how i fucking feel with every fucking single thing that is fucking happening around me.. im very much fucking affected with every fucking things that is fucking happening which affects me in a fucking way...

i can fucking sense that there is a fucking change in all of you... i dun fucking understand how there is a fucking need for this fucking behaviour to fucking occur...what is the fucking problem? i fucking hate it when people keep things to themselves... i cant fucking find a fucking gud reason... i guess all of us needs to tone down and take time off... sometimes its not a good thing to be too close and spent alot of time together... im so going to fucking lay back for a while before i feel comfortable getting back to this fucking reality... fucking shiet...

and i just type the word "fucking" 21 times

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im just waiting for this semester to end quick... im freakingly tired from all the activities for the past few weeks... i need sleep and im lacking of it... ok crap...

so today was rather surprisingly dismissed early... especially from the faci that follows the books line by line... class would usually end at 430 but today it ended at 1... so usually i would have alot of plans that i skipped class halfway... but the first thing i told myself today was to stay through out... so when we were dismissed, i was rather lost and dunno where to go... end up met with my old kakis and habg out at the coffeeshopl like every day...

hop over to meet aryl and 'tour-ed' around marsiling for a while before making our way to his crib... i was all shag up that i actually had an afternoon nap... the last time i had it was like when i was primary 2 i guess... yeah ive grown since... so azhar joy and hyrude benny benson tagged along... its just that im attracred to lyrics composing and music making and adding on to the collection, the addition of being addict to playing guitar...

so semester ending in a week plus from now... and yes its been one hell of a roller coaster ride... 2 more Uts and im done with it... so yeah... it having blurr visions from the unwelcome eye bags... alright... will be out in 468628940 hours...

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blog not updated due to lazy-ness... ok so its the end of the week... and its been freaking fast... maybe its just me... ive not been staying in class till the end except for today... its seems dta im in no mood to attend skool... just 2 more freaking weeks till my 10 weeks holis...

so nothing much happened these past few weeks... the same old routine... in life, shit happens.. it really do... emotions of the heart gets played around like some kind of soft toy... i dun understand... why must u wanna get commited to something if you noe you cant do so? but nevermind... those are parts and parcel of life...

to Aryl Suerylski... we dvr is a family to each of us... eventhough we do not know what is going on, doesnt mean we dun care at all... and stop it with your nonsense about facing death and all... dun start with all the negative thots... its bothering us...

keep us updated so atleast we know...

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when everything that i thought would turn out good seems to backfire me... ok i did not turn up for class just because i dun feel like entering the classroom which makes me feel mundane time and again... today i did alot of thinking... i think more than i usually would... i shall make it not known about the events that happened at skool...

so i decided to catch up with the krew and try to chill out... everything seems to be going just fine till the mention of o levels that i will be taking this year... but that wasnt the big issue that cause me to bite my tongue... a message was all it need to break my day... i thought bout it very carefully right at the begining... everything was all planned and nothing i did was wrong as i knew that it was all that i wanted... but nevertheless SHIT HAPPENS... for all i know is that i did nothing wrong to break us in anyway or anything that may have caused that incident to happened... now i cant do anything much other than to just think about it, find a solution and GET OVER IT... but then again... tonight seems to be rather solemn...

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so yeah first day of skool reopens seems to be as expected... QUIET AND BORING... jyeah jackpot... so science module seems to be abit uselss to me as the remaining lessons will not be tested anymore... im still pending if i should take the UT tomorrow... alright... i'll be a good boy and turn up for class =)

so its been the same old me i guess... so today i decided to have an early leave... AGAIN!!... haha yeah i noe that ive been doing that often but atleast im passing my modules... so hanged out with my normal lepak clan from 12 to about 2 before heading to Cathay Causeway Point... watched bedtime stories again... but this time with these few bunch of people... so movie was nice eventhough ive watched it before...

headed over to civic centre after dat... chilled out at MacD... its been freaking long since i chilled out at civic... the last time i guess would be like a few months back... so my friends got a surprise about my hair... so i recieved names like matrep., botak abd worst was from the saggy themselves... so this was wat they called me...( look below)


BOTAK JONES... do i even look like this guy? do i even sell authentic american food... im not bald as in skin... there is still hair growing on my head... so yeah...

alright blog readers... please leave a tag after every visit... thanks =)

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so yeah... skool reopens tomorrow... mood: neutral... im not feeling happy that skool is starting again and neither am i glad about it... nevermind about that cuz its just 3 more weeks to my long holidays...

so today was rather a chill out day for me... woke up quite late... rather it have been a rountine for the holiday due to late nights everyday... so met up with the other baduts and headed over to wan joi's crib... relax and watch some television... that(watching television) i have not done in quite some time... i was the accompanied by my lappy but sad case is that msn is getting bored these days... no conversation going on at al... very mundane indeed...

so we laughed about some idiots trying to make a fool of them - American Idol... haha lame shiet... but atleast we are spending time together as a band... Guitar Hero was the sex... haha... and all the laughetr and chaotic-ness in the progress of playing the game... nothing much happened today...

so another new day for new 'adventures' tomorrow at skool... so yeah...

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life have been rather complete these days... it seems that what ive been trying to achieve all these years are finally falling into place... ive been rather busy with alot of stuff... rather... with Devout Recital... it seems only a few weeks that we got together to form the band... but to think back... its been quiet a long way...

from normal meet ups at 3 haus park to our own pent house over at admiralty... we have been consistently producing our own originals and slowly improving ourselves and not to forget the bond that we have achieved... we shared the same common aim which is to catch Avenged Sevenfold live... and we did just that...

moving to exposure and performances... from small events like birthday celebration at chalets to taking our music to a new level thru the battle of the bands and winning 3rd... and the latest one which is tmr... an open genre gig...


having you in my life have turned it to a whole new dimension... after all these years, finally ive managed to share my life with someone and that is you... im not putting any pressure for us... im not expecting alot either... today seems rather empty with no messages from you due to you being away for camp... but atleast i got to hear your voice thru a simple goodnite call... i miss you syg...

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goodbye two thousand eight and hello two thousand nine... yes its been fast gone and moving into a new year means new resolutions to be created and completed. this year, i managed to welcome the new year with the people that i love... those who have been through with me all the way... its none other than the krew from Devout Recital


trained all the way to town and chilled out at the esplanade... im jammed packed with alot of people... sometimes i find that the crowd control is abit disorganise with them only planning things to suit their ways...


alright so we headed over to Beats Merchant to have a session with the band... the first hour was rather shiety as maybe we were tired and never did we had jamming sessions at 1 in the morning... so we jamm till about 430 and had some rest before going for another session at 5... rehearsing every single song that we are going to play this weekend... its tiring but at the same time is always fun with the badots...


nothing for me to add on... niwae tickets for L Cube is already sold out... but for those who still wants to catch us live can purchase the tickets at the door at the price of 10 bucks each... HAPPY NEW YEAR people... cheers =)

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